#but eh has to be done 🤷🏻‍♀️

[gregmarriage]

art therapy, but it’s me writing my shitty little fics

[onekisstotakewithme]

20 questions for fic writers 💜

tagged by the lovely @mihrsuri (I think more than once, although the other time was some time ago... thank you for the tag! 🥰💜)

1. how many works do you have on ao3? 221, not counting unrevealed ones from exchanges

2. what's your total ao3 word count? 1,417,178 words

3. what fandoms do you write for? Right now, mostly M*A*S*H and The West Wing, though I do occasionally dabble in other fandoms (Star Trek TOS, For All Mankind, etc.)

4. top five fics by kudos? 1) Ties That Bind - Star Trek (Spirk) 2) a wild call and a clear call (that may not be denied) - Star Trek (Spirk) 3) Uncharted Territory - M*A*S*H (Beejhawk) 4) ye who are weary, come home - M*A*S*H (Punnihawk, Charles/Donna, canon pairings, etc.) 5) you were meant for me - M*A*S*H (Punnihawk)

5. do you respond to comments? Not usually. I feel pretty guilty about it and I do try and go for a thank you note in the A/N at the end of each story/chapter, but my spoons are pretty limited. I do however cherish each and every comment, and if I have regular commenters, your username is probably carved into my heart. 🥺

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Uhhh. That is a good question, because even if I write in angsty/bittersweet scenes, the endings are usually more hopeful or happy.

I guess my best answer to that is "let's do some living (after we die)" only because it's immediately followed by canonical character death. lmao.

7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? There are any number of stories you could pick for this one, haha. But I guess if I had to pick (twist my arm, why don't you!), then it's probably either "ye who are weary, come home" (OT3 Endgame!!!), OR "Make the Leap" (this one takes place on January 21st, 2007, so that and the title should make it self explanatory 😉)

8. do you get hate on fic? Not... really? Sometimes I'd get comments complaining that I should be writing a different pairing 🤷🏻‍♀️ (which..???) but I don't get much "engagement" to begin with usually, so I'm grateful that what I do get is for the most part positive. 🥰

9. do you write smut? Yep. Nothing super hardcore and not very often (because I am a self-conscious girlie haha) but I will write it. Posting it is another story. I want to do more, it's just getting over myself to do it. (if anyone has advice on how to proceed with getting over my self-consciousness, I'm ALL ears).

10. craziest cross over? I once, in my misspent youth, wrote a crossover between Downton Abbey and Titanic (it's still buried in the depths of my FFN page, alas it is unfinished.)

11. have you ever had a fic stolen? Not as far as I know, no.

12. have you ever had a fic translated? Yes! My one M*A*S*H Fic, "Here's Hoping We Meet Now and Then" (aka BJ puts the "GOODBYE" stones together with the help of the rest of the 4077) was translated into German by a dear friend of mine, Pat. And you can read that here.

13. have you ever co-written a fic before? A few times in the distant past. Once recently (I'm sure you'll all see it soon enough!!) 😈... in general, I love the idea of getting to write with my fellow ficcers whom I cherish and admire, so I'd love to do more co-written fics.

14. all time favorite ship? I'm not picking one lmao. But if I had to? Probably CJ/Danny. They had everything. the chemistry. the will they/won't they. the yearnnnning. (Close runners-up are BJ/Peg/Hawkeye, Anna/Bates, Spirk... and Kate/Gibbs because I don't forget my roots).

15. what's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? Triad Wedding. 😬 I got kinda burnt out and (at the time I finished it) went "eh no one will want to read this anyway" so now I have a 125k MASH draft on my desktop. It has... well, everything. Bisexual OT3 wedding. Mucho smut (more than I've ever published in one story before in my LIFE). Communication ✨. etc. It's been two years now, so even though there's a full draft, I don't want to promise that it'll ever be done. It needs a lot of work.

16. what are your writing strengths? Dialogue. I used to be terrified of writing dialogue, and now I think I'm decent at it. Staying in character, maybe?

17. what are your writing weaknesses? Pacing! Ask me why the 125k draft mentioned above is only seven days of in-universe time.

Also I could be better at worldbuilding. I know many authors who flesh out the whole universe and make it feel so breathable and lived in (Mia for example, she's a champ at that!) but that's still a work in progress for me. AND smut. I need to get better/more confident at that, but I've yet to learn how after six-odd years of writing it. 😐

18. thoughts on dialogue in another language? I don't speak enough languages for that. Other authors can do it and do it convincingly. Not me tho.

19. first fandom you wrote in? Lost (baby's first fanfic, still buried in the depths of my FFN page); but I really got into it with Downton Abbey.

20. favorite fic you've written? I could give one of my usual answers about "ye who are weary" (because of the technical achievement of covering so many characters in one story), or "Don't Bet Your Future" (probably my MOST self-indulgent) but instead...

I really enjoyed writing "None of Us Are More Than Caretakers", guys. The season 7 secret relationship is one of my favourite time periods to cover for CJ and Danny, and getting to write this little "missing episode" between Last Hurrah and Institutional Memory was so much fun, and a great technical challenge. Plus it WAS self-indulgent because I got to write all the post-coital scenes we were robbed of in canon AND build up to the events of IM.

thank you again!!! and I'll tag whoever is interested and has a few free hours to kill! 💜✨

[lumax-mayclair]

Watched the the new Zoey 101 movie (guilty) and I thought it was fine. I really think if they wrote a couple things a little differently it would’ve been better:

Like Quinn being overwhelmed by the wedding preparation because she’s never thought about having a big wedding but ofc Logan has, that all makes sense and I hear what she’s saying but I don’t really see what she’s saying. In terms of storytelling and film making, I feel like they should’ve dramatisized everything more. Like the life sized cakes was the only thing that seemed over the top and I can see how that’s a little much but nowhere else did it seem like Logan was making more of a “spectacle than making it meaningful”.

They should’ve run more with the sight gags like those cakes because as the wedding ends up looking just very plain (not a diss) but very classy and elegant looking. Even Quinn’s dress is so simple but beautiful.

It’s a small venue, the wedding colors are green, black, and white. Very simple. Some flowers here and there.

I guess Lyric was one of those overwhelming gags also to emphasize how “over the top” all this is but that’s her “gift” to them, she’s Quinn’s sister in law and they’ve known each other for nearly 15 yrs so why are we overwhelmed with something that should be normal coming from her ???

(p.s. unpopular opinion: I liked Lyrics’ song, the melody was great, the lyrics eh, but I like the line “she’s in her wedding dress and he’s hoping she’ll say yes”; very Quogan, very “She’s everything, He’s just Ken”.)

Anyway moving away from Quogan: Michael. Literally what is the point of taking one of the main main characters who bothered to return for this reboot, and having them lose their voice so they can’t speak for half the movie. You might say it’s due to controversy but if they cared about controversies, they wouldn’t have done this movie at all 🤷🏻‍♀️.

Stacey & Mark: to preface: personally I loved Stacey in the original and Mark is…Mark 🤷🏻‍♀️. I kinda wish they had mentioned Stacy’s original obsession with Logan in the series, I think that could’ve been fun if they worked that in somehow. They did mention Mark & Quinn dating but (ins how everyone feels about this) I would’ve liked if Mark had regret about dump—breaking up with (😅) Quinn and was holding a torch for her or something because again: she’s everything. The whole dynamic of Quogan and Stark being couple besties…wasn’t the vibe imo. The whole thing of Stacey interrupting the wedding bcs she’s obsessed with murder mysteries like since when?? How did that happen?? WHERE ARE THE COTTEN SWABS AND WHITE GLUE!!!!!? You’re gonna tell me a friend officiating their 2 friends wedding doesn’t think to turn off their notifications when they’re reading the nuptials off their phone during said wedding like—?? Especially when one of her announcements was for everyone to silence their phones????!

Speaking of phones out during the wedding: Zoey.

I mean…it’s Zoey (JLS) who’s surprised that this, the most special of days has to be made about her and her really weird and sad desire to go back to PCA. Also it’s really weird to me how that was the solution to the wedding being ruined when literally she’s the only one feigning to go back, the others are doing great and are cool being done with that. They look back fondly, not longingly, so idk why it was played like getting married at PCA is somehow Quinn’s dream and the solution to their problem. And if we do go back and have the Quogan wedding there, HOW ARE WE NOT GONNA INCLUDE THEIR BENCH!!!!? I mean maybe the group didn’t know about it, maybe, but Logan definitely would and speaking of Logan.

Nothing much wrong with him in the film tbh, he was so husband it was great actually, but what the hell was that line?? They’ve been together, again, almost 15 years. There is 0 chance he doesn’t know to talk to her if they’re having a problem. To be fair tho, I think the implication was that in the hustle and bustle and over the top ness of the wedding he lost sight of them as a couple and how their dynamic works and that’s why Quinn was upset but like, really?? all Zoey has to say is “have you tried just talking to her” and he remembers that that’s what they do…?? Okay.

Anyway, I think we all agree a Quogan movie would’ve been better. 😊😊

Oh! P.s. Chase! This is really sad and pathetic. Get over this, bitch!!

[dpsisquared]

Enjoy this random snippet of Dimileth fake dating that I found in my WIPs. No clue what the context or plan was 🤷🏻‍♀️

"Oh, is that the event you were telling me about, honey?" She locked her arm in his and said pointedly to Cornelia, "I'm so happy I'll finally get to meet everyone! I'm Byleth by the way," and extended her hand. Cornelia shook it, looking bemused. "Byleth, eh? I daresay everyone will be anxious to meet you, as well." She drifted off to mingle. "What are you thinking?" he hissed in a whisper. "She was completely ignoring your boundaries!" He pinched the bridge of his nose. "That's what she does. I'm used to it." "It's something to stop, not get used to!" "Now what am I going to do, when everyone is expecting me to bring my new lover?" She grinned. "That's the best part. Say we broke up in explosive fashion, like, the night before. That explains my absence, and they'd look like jerks trying to move in on you." She holds out her hands, looking pleased with herself, like she has bestowed a generous gift upon him. He stared at her a moment with an unreadable look on his face. "They'll just try to soothe my broken heart," he said. Then, with a smirk, he continued, "No, what would really stop them is you coming with me. Seeing how desperately in love I am." He crossed his arms over his chest and arched his brow, the posture of issuing a challenge, and she never backed down from a challenge. Except, she wasn't actually sure what this one was. "I... don't have a dress," she said. "I'm rich. I'll buy you one." "I don't know how to dance." "I do. I'll teach you." "I could have plans, you know." He snorted. "Not likely." "Rude!" "Are you quite done?" he said smugly. "This was your idea, you know." That was technically true, but the idea had escaped her hold, grown and mutated. She had started this conversation feeling in control, playing the part of the predator. But now she had the distinct feeling of being a fox that ended up in a snare, and a wolf was prowling.

[skyloftian-nutcase]

Random question: Do you think that future Zelda games should have more nuance storytelling? A common complaint that I saw about Tears of the Kingdom was that the story was too ‘Black & White’ and it was a topic that was often brought up in months following the games release (even to the point that some were painting Rauru as the villain & Ganondorf as the good guy treated it as fact despite how NOT true that was)

I mean… eh 🤷🏻‍♀️

I love me some complicated characters, truly. Understanding their motivations, seeing their relationships, I live for that stuff. But Zelda games have nuanced storytelling in other ways, oftentimes in what they don’t say. Can they be more interesting? Yeah. Would I have preferred a different/better story for TotK? Yeah. But I feel like Zelda games bring a lot to the table, and the storytelling has never necessarily been their strength but also never necessarily been bad. Besides, have you seen Majora’s Mask? Freaking phenomenal characters there.

Also, these games are for kids as well as adults - children aren’t fools, but basic good and bad principles should be portrayed as black and white and then as they grow they learn there’s greyscale in the middle. Something that’s lost nowadays is that some things are just wrong and some things are just right. Some things are just true and some things are just not.

Overall, a more nuanced story would be nice, but I don’t think Zelda stories have been bad, and it’s definitely a popular and steadily becoming overused trope to make the bad guy “misunderstood.” Give me complicated characters, sure, but don’t downplay the horrible things they’ve done because Tragic Backstory or some other nonsense. I feel like people’s desire for “nuanced” doesn’t actually always mean interesting or complicated.

So… eh 🤷🏻‍♀️

[cognacdelights]

i honestly think there will be a season 4 because it is still one of netflix biggest shows, the only way i can see it being cancelled if is netflix looses a majority of their customers after the whole not sharing account fiasco ( that i am so pissed of about )

anyway the only reason why i am excited is because they are finally addressing the pogues mental health and JJ’s childhood abuse and anxiety because of that

eh i don’t really think it’s that popular anymore

i know A LOT of people who have lost interest in the show since they confirmed jiara and will not be watching, including myself

i genuinely think that that will plummet ratings dramatically like so fucking low. people don’t want to see that tbh 🤷🏻‍♀️

it’s such a shame bc i think all of them a good enough actors to pull that off and have some really emotional scenes but the reality is that one shit judgement to green light a shit storyline completely ruins the show

plus we all know that the writers are shit and it’s going to be done in the stupidest way possible. pope is going to get with cleo before any jiara shit happens so he has “no right” to be mad about it (which he should be and it’s unrealistic if he’s not) and then it’s gonna kiara whining at jj for 10 episodes straight and changing everything about him that people actually like and spending the entire season apologising to her for being himself and not what she wants him to be

[dr-fancy-pants]

I don't do that often but some little art rambling

I think I'll post it later but I made a sketch yesterday without a single look at a ref - which nowadays is very rare for me - and it made me realize some stuff

Using photo references so heavily has made me make a LEAP in how I see and construct anatomy, even without reference now. I'm better with weird angles, and quicker (people who have seen me draw IRL know I was already crazy quick. Well I'm faster now, sorry bout that. It's the brain worms. If not fast enough, I get bored and ditch it all 🤷🏻‍♀️)

Drawing people without clothes will help with that. And also. It's nice. 😅🤣 (No next drawing is not nakey. Just an open shirt. Already something eh)

Just like my style is different if I draw directly on the tablet (haven't done that lately. I was using hand drawn sketches and lined them on the tablet), my style is different if I use a photo reference or not. With a photo ref I tend to more realistic traits and proportions, with finer face features and hands. Without I get blockier/rounder faces, and more cartoonish looks. Which I should have noticed because I reduce canon proportions ON PURPOSE since high school (that's LONG AGO) in my art.

A little bit on canon proportions: I have no idea how to explain it in artsy terms because I have never taken a single art class in my life outside of the mandatory ones in middle school (which. Meh. The teacher didn't like that I was obsessed with stuff and kept drawing the same thing for months on ends, only adapting to the rules (limited palette, include stripes, whatever. I managed to do all that while still drawing horses only lol). I wish she could see my blog, now 🤣🤣🤣

Anyway canon proportions for an adult man are that the whole body will be 7x to 8x the head in height. Women tend to be 6 to 7.

My proportions are usually 5x to 6x, except for my OC Desden who gets 7 because he's supposed to be noticeably taller than everyone else. Which results in that more cartoonish look, because the head will look bigger compared to the body.

Anyway. Just found that interesting so I thought I'd share 🤷🏻‍♀️

[never-not-ever]

I’m at the car dealership and the lady who I was just talking to has a picture of her 5 daughters on her desk. An old coworker is having baby #2 due this December and she has an 8 month old right now. My cousin recently told me she’s pregnant…

🙃🙃🙃

Ugh I feel so eh today. I’m on day 4 of being off but I go back tomorrow and I’m kind of dreading it. The 4 day weekend was very much needed cause my last two shifts were eh. But now I’m like ughhh I don’t want to go back. But on the plus side my next weekend off I’m using PTO for my last shift before my weekend and that gives me 6 days off.. like that is just CRAZY! It was never this easy to get time off let alone have that much time off using only 1 PTO day?? I mean yea I bunch up 80% of my hours in only 2 days 😂 but it’s so worth it!

My weight is slowly climbing and it’s making me so uncomfortable. I know how stupid the scale is and how easily it can change so saying my weight is 10lbs higher in the last 6 weeks is scary but also 🤷🏻‍♀️ I know it can easily go down 5lbs in the next few days due to so many factors so WHY does it matter????

Ugh it doesn’t help that her mother told me how I look so skinny and how I must have lost a lot more weight and that when she hugged me she could feel my ribs. Like I’m sitting here right now holding onto this roll of fat on the top of my stomach… My ribs are not prominent like that, I think she was exaggerating… but it has been a few months since I’ve seen any of her family so yes I do look a little different.

All this weight shit is just fucking with my head. I’m so irritated today. I feel like I got 0 accomplished these past few days but also it wasn’t the plan to do any housework. The plan was to relax and unwind. But I just hate my current living situation so much and I feel like I could have done SO MUCH to change that.

Ugh I need therapy. But also I think my therapist is getting sick of the same 3 topics. Work, “her” and weight stuff. On the plus side I think I’m going back to seeing her in person sometime in June. A couple months ago when things were “bad” she made a comment about not being able to see me in person. Like to physically see how bad things are getting. Now it’s low key messing with my head being able to see her in person again..

I need to call my Aunt and I keep putting that off. I keep putting so many things off cause I just want to be alone while I can before I have to pick her up from work. I chose to sleep more this morning instead of “tidying” up the place. I could talk to my Aunt on my way home from the dealership but I just need some alone time. It sounds so stupid. A lot of things sound stupid lately. I feel so irritated and annoyed and it’s bothering me.

[bisluthq]

A lot of Joe fans feel the need to defend Joe because he is constantly being attacked by irrational Swifties. Matty actually walked out on her and ghosted her, but Swifties still talk about Joe more, even to the point of denying Matty meant anything to Taylor, because that would mean the scathing Matty songs are about Joe. They actually seem like they were the one in the relationship with Joe, instead of Taylor. The hatred is that bad. As progressive as Swifties say they are, they actually prefer men who act more traditionally performative, when women were considered weak, and men had to be her knight who would throw a coat over a puddle(from history) for a lady to walk on. Modern day equivalent is opening doors and letting women go first. But maybe like you said once, Joe was raised by a mom who preached equality amongst sexes, and you made an implication there that wasn’t necessarily good, as I interpreted it.

Swifties are not generally speaking progressive.

I didn’t mean to imply Joe’s feminist upbringing is a bad thing. I kinda remember the context of the convo - we may have had it several times - and it was around how both Brynn and Taylor have accused Patrick and Joe of not doing much for them lol and I think that stems from a practical and feminist background where they’re like… not going to do things for their gfs if it’s much simpler for the gf to do it herself (Brynn seemingly being upset about him not picking her up at the airport but like realistically that would’ve been semi hard for him and it’s like an Uber like all she needed to do was get an Uber to where he was which, while not romantic, is logical and he obviously presumes Brynn is a functional human who has traveled internationally regularly and ergo can manage this, Taylor doesn’t have an example of this but I think he just let her do a lot of stuff because eh she’s capable of it 🤷🏻‍♀️) and also I think Joe was very happy for her to Bejewel on her own time but didn’t want to have the Bejewelling infringe on his time and I think, again, that’s a genuine equality stance where like “our careers are important to us so let’s both do them” 🤷🏻‍♀️

I know Swifties and Joe fans fight a lot but guys why here lol. I like them both. I kept both in the divorce. Like this feels worse than my parents’ divorce where yk I obviously kept both because my parents aren’t compete cunts (well to each other often they are but not generally speaking as people) and they didn’t keep insisting the other side was evil lol. My parents are divorced because they’re both shitty in some ways and were very incompatible and also my dad had an affair with my mum’s family friend from growing up (but they’re still married like 17 years later so it was a fuck u to my mum and that woman’s first husband and also to our grandparents for whom everything got awkward but it did work out so also like life happens and like fwiw my dad loves to say that my mum is the one who kicked him out and he was willing to work on stuff but idk what you were on when you who and fuck her best friend from growing up lol like that one’s done mate). Overall, good for everyone idk. Nobody was fucking evil. Life just… happens.

[musette22]

MININIEEEEEEEEE.

MINNIE PLEASE. HELP. 

Not only did I open tumblr today at the worst possible moment (minutes before running a two-hour staff workshop 🙃), my friend (who’s always been a bit ‘eh 🤷🏻‍♀️’ when I’ve talked about finding certain Floofiest Man Alive unfairly hot) sent me the article and was like HAVE YOU SEEN THIS?? WHAT EVEN IS THIS??? OKAY I GET IT NOW and I would’ve done a little victory dance if I hadn’t been extremely busy crying into my coffee under the table 😭😭😭😭😭😭

Like. I admit it takes quite a lot for me to lose my mind like this, but. Come on. This is just… uncalled for. Jail for 1000 years for this life ruiner 😤😤😤😤😤😤  For crimes against our collective sanity, and also excessive floofiness 🥺🥺🥺

Ugh I hate himmm.

KAAAAAAAAAYYY YOU MAGNIFICENT PEARLY-WINGED UNICORN💖💖💖 Oh god, I WISH I could help you, but alas, I've been dying in a ditch all day so I don't think I caaaaaaaaan 😭😭😭😭

First of all, that was incredibly rude timing on Evans/tumblr's part!! I hope your staff workshop still went well? I'm sure you nailed it!! And second, I love love love that your friend gets it now too!! Victory 🙌🏻 To be honest, I'm not surprised this shoot won them over, because it was pretty exceptional. Sexy AND cute AND hot AND vulnernerable, like, they really went ALL out with this one (a bit like Chris's tits were all out in this one too) 😤😤😤

I hate him so much too, it's unreal. Let's start a petition to cancel him. I think it's time, he's ruined our lives for long enough (I hope he'll ruin my life for many years to come 💛💛)

I hope you've had a good day regardless of the (over)excitement and that you've recovered a little bit by now, my angel!! ('cause then at least one of us has..!) I LOVE YOU, lots and lots and lots! mwah! 🌈🌈🌈

[tartagliaxx]

I finally finished Inazuma Archon quest and I have so many things in my mind.

Spoiler maybe (????????)

1. I wanna slap Ei so so so so so so bad. Like, uhg, damn.

2. I think I'm in love with Yae Miko, be my mommy ma'am 🥺

3. It bruns me to the core that Childe is one of the fatui, after seeing all the things they've done and how they don't really care about human life... I feel like, uhg, out of love with him? I still like him but then my brain says "He's not too different from Scara, he tried to drown Liyue, what if he would have succeeded?" I'm having a crisis here. Childe the househusband and Childe the heartless fatui, I hope in this new event we can learn more about him but still... I feel salty.

4. I cried like a baby, Teppei, I'll miss you so much.

5. Archons are selfish, I don't trust them no matter how attractive and daddy like cofcofzhonglicofcof they can be.

Okay, I finished! In general a good story, however, the ending was kinda rushed? Hehehehe Thank you for reading, I just wanted to share this with you 💕

🤷🏻‍♀️ Anon

so uh… well… hm… i have a lot of things to say abt the inazuma archon quest and aha… majority of them are… not good </3 i wont bore u w it tho bc istg i could write a full 180 pages just ranting abt whatever the hell that was. i did share my thoughts utc abt the points u made tho

ei is… well i dont really know what to say abt her. i like her design and her playstyle but how she was written? eh… i’m not the fondest unfortunately. i cant say that she’s not endearing sometimes tho.

yes. i worship one (1) yae miko 🧎‍♀️

lol. well… as his self-proclaimed first wife, i feel like i need to defend him but literally, with what?? i made an in-depth analysis over this b4 and idk if you read it but it was in an ask and i discussed my take on househusband childe and canon childe. the way i see it, scaramouche and childe are different. they’re both evil, yes, but their ambition, reasoning and way of things make them different kinds of evil people. in my eyes, childe seems like the person who would avoid unnecessary innocent deaths but wouldn’t hesitate to cut them down for his own goal. on the other hand, i dont think scaramouche would even bother w his dubious morals. now dont get me wrong, death is death and im not justifying his murders. i’m just saying that to a degree, childe does care abt human life. after all, he values his family. i find it hard to believe that whenever he does kill, he doesnt, for a split second, see his family’s faces. it’s just that he values his own ambition over life and its not any better but i think it’s a vital point of his character. one thing i like abt childe is that he’s not pretentious and the game also does a good job of portraying him as a harbinger. childe has never tried to pretend as if he’s a misunderstood villain. no, he admits that he’s a bad person who has done bad things and the game doesnt make it anymore or less than it’s supposed to be. yes, this guy is bad. there’s no justifying that. he was introduced from the get-go as someone we should be wary of and we were. ngl tho, i dont think him succeeding in liyue would affect anything. first, his plan was never going to succeed bc zhongli was ready to fix things if the qixing proved to be incompetent and second, because childe already has red on his ledger even b4 the game started. he’s canonically ‘evil’ and ‘immoral’ in that sense. tldr, liking childe means a.) liking the complexities of his canon character and psychology, b.) liking the fans’ portrayal of childe and c.) a little of both. i think you fit in the b category in which case i feel like you should avoid letting the canon bleed into your views bc it’ll be quite stressful? difficult? to think abt. i really do think it’s easier to think of those as two different people bc the way househusband childe could become canon is very different from the househusband childe you probably have in mind.

sigh… teppei you would be missed… i hope you had more development and roles.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm ok so i have a lot to say abt this but i’ll get to the gist. ‘selfish’ would be a good term but i also feel like it’s lacking. rather than being ‘selfish’ i think they’re more ‘human.’ they’re no different to the mortals save for their ageless and powerful nature. every day, we receive stimulus that make us react differently, possibly immorally which i can assure you, none of these archons believe they were immoral. ei, for example, believed an unchanging inazuma would be the best way to safeguard her people from the pain of loss. zhongli also thought that him leaving liyue to the hands of the people is a gift and so is venti’s lack of overseeing presence in mondstadt. we cant say they’re wrong bc their principles are also fundamentally different from ours. similarly, i can’t say for sure that if i were in their shoes (which is to say i am a god who experienced years of war, faced millions of loss and did smth that was against my morals), i’ll be any less ‘selfish.’ the only reason i could react negatively rn at ei’s actions is bc i know what it means to be mortal and to waste away but in her eyes, she probably cant comprehend the human dislike for stagnancy. how could she when she’s been stagnantly herself all these thousands of years? the truth of this matters remains to be that these archons thought they were right (just like human decision in their day to day drama) and the choices they made are flawed similar to how humans would make choices that cant be agreeable for everyone. but yes. don’t trust anyone for that matter

the entire thing was rushed. wish it took a different turn but eh- i hope this was a good reply lol. i got carried away and ended up rambling abt my cluttered view of some things. hope you dont mind <33

[whatsherfacewrites]

Author Questions

Tagged by @ellstersmash​ - hey, thanks! I know a thing about always flogging the same damn fics! :D

Uhhh tagging @skyholdherbalist @melaena @tonks32 @thejeeperswife @bearly-tolerable @a-shakespearean-in-paris -if you want an excuse to self-promo! Feel free to ignore!

Author Name: whatsherface (sooooo good!)

Fandoms You Write For: Dragon Age

Where You Post: AO3 and Tumblr, technically

Most Popular One-Shot: Cold Hands, Warm Hearts has the most hits, by virtue of being oldest. In terms of kudos/hits, it’s Nothing Wagered, in which Cass arm-wrestles Cullen and Owain is impressed. Fluff is more read but less commented on than my angsty fics. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Most Popular Multi-Chapter Story: Clean Burn (but was it even a contest?)

Favorite Story You Wrote: City of Lies, my modern police procedural AU. This started out as a noir/detective concept and morphed along the way, partly born out of my love for cop shows (e.g. Law & Order and even Brooklyn 99 lol). I’m also a city person, and I’m always thinking about how my characters would act in a modern urban setting. Maybe a little too much.

Story You Were Nervous to Post: Clean Burn was the first real fic I ever wrote, and I was super nervous to post that first chapter. Like, is anyone going to read this? Is anyone going to care about Owain? Do people even read Cass/M!Quiz?? Anyway, I got over it.

How Do You Choose Your Titles: I love titles and treat them as meta-commentary. I like them pithy and on theme and either a callback to something or a play on words. Clean Burn, for example, is an inferno school passive in DAI, which speaks to fire magic as part of Owain’s identity, but because it’s about burning away ambient magic that interferes with your casting, it also represents his growth over the course of the story, burning away the cruft and becoming the best, purest version of himself.

Do You Outline: hell yeah. Though by outline I mean bullet points for story beats, plus any specific lines or dialogue that I don’t want to forget. I also chart out separate plot threads and character arcs so I can sequence and pace things appropriately. Sometimes timelines, too.

Complete: All done, everything. Those green check marks feel GREAT, let me tell you.

In-Progress: City of Magic, a follow-up to City of Lies.

Coming Soon: Same! But it’ll be a minute. I’m still storyboarding, and it feels a little like dumping out a bucket of ideas and seeing which ones fit together.

Do You Accept Prompts: Eh. I don’t ask for them because I can’t promise I’ll ever write ‘em, and I don’t want to raise expectations. I only have so much writing time/energy, and there’s usually something I want to work on already. Multi-tasking is a lie.  

Upcoming Story You Are Most Excited to Write: I’ve always wanted to write more of the modern AU. It’s happening!

[akane171]

Party or murder 😂😂 Sounds like a drinking game😉

🙈

Ehh wait, I'm not exactly sure what you mean by more of them will appear and I'll have more to read? Like, do you mean others will start writing again or what? Cause I can barely stand to reread my own BS once to check for bigger mistakes, reading my own BS wouldn't be an option😅 And well, about dead fandoms...My first real fanfic obsession was Charmed (esp. Season 6) and that show has been over since 2006...And that's not even the only dead fandom I'm in, I just reread stuff and imagine fanfics to the fanfics til I find something else to binge fanfic-read as well and just keep coming back to the dead stuff 🤷🏻‍♀️😂 I'm the Ghost in the Ghost Town😉💃🏻 (But hey, I didn't say I'm not writing at all, just that I prefer reading, cause I don't like my writing and other people's stuff is BRILLIANT😍🙈)

We did NOT talk about MURDERING animals! We were being protective over who made the poor Kangaroos faint! 😑 If you are gonna call us murderers at least get your facts straight😭😉😂

Well, nobody said it had to be an anime vid🤷🏻‍♀️ You could have watched a lyric vid or one of the Karamel vids with the song (which I even told you about😌), so nope, still your own fault for watching naked asses😉😉😂😂

Ohhh, wait "happy day on social media"?😂😅 What's that supposed to look like, but sounds fun😅😂 Waaaaaiiittt, WHAT?!?! AN AMERICAN VERSION?!?!😳😳 Wtf...😅🙈

"Maybe" 😂😂😂 Yeah right, more like "abso-freaking-lutely" 

Ohhh, yess, that'd be my dream too😍 Or just finding myself a scriber/ghost writer that I could tell my ideas to and who writers it with MUCH better skills than I ever could😂😂🙈

Yuup, it's just sad to watch tho... I'm totally Team Aleksandr tho cause that guy spent several hundred years just wanting Grisha to be treated equal to Otkazat'sya and while the books made him a monster, his Show!self is totally just a tired old man and crying young boy who never knew safety in one (aka the power of Ben Barnes humanizing the character LB never bothered to show as anything but supposedly evil) [Actually, my current favourite Shadow&Bone Fanfic called "Alliance of Enemies" even manages to take the BS that is all the books' events and still manage to make Aleksandr relatable and point out the faults in ALL characters, plus having them deal with PTSD etc😍 Oh, and a OT3 I never expected to ship, tho it's slowburn😂]

I'm absolutely prepared for the worst but the fact there have already been several changes (like Mal's character being nicer, the Crows being involved, Alina not only bothering to save herself and her stupid Malyen from the Fold, dear Sascha getting more backstory in the form of a former lover who was killed by the then-king and the king betraying him thus forcing Aleks to accidently create the fold, etc) gives me a bit of hope🙈🙈

Naah, it'd turn out terrible🙈🙈 Plus, I should get the fanfic I started and the half-started and not-started ideas still lying around done first😅🙈🤦🏻‍♀️

Eve and ideas? Ohhhh, shut up and take my money, that can only end BRILLIANTLY😍😍😍😍😍😍💃🏻💃🏻

Yeah, but that's because I was prepared for the absolute WORST🤷🏻‍♀️😅😂🙈

About Sorata and Arashi: Eh well, if I remember correctly Syaoran, Sakura etc were in several worlds were versions of Sorata and Arashi existed 🤔 I'm not sure if ALL of them were married, but at least one pair of them was married (tho also both died, but they got to embrace in death) and another version of the duo was in Tokyo tho I really can't remember if they were married🤔🤔 (Sorry, it's been a few years since I last read Tsubasa Chronicle 🙈🙈)

Ahhhhhh, okay, you just meant that🤦🏻‍♀️😂 I thought you meant some other REFERENCE I didn't get🙈🙈😅 But yess, slicked back hair is totally 100th episode Mon and the rest is also totally Kara 😂🙈😁 

...A Grease Au...? BUAHAHAHAHAAH, THAT would be funny😂😂😂 Sounds like something Chris and Mel would enjoy tho😉😂

Yes, yes, I'll ABSO-FREAKING-LUTELY KEEP MY FINGERS DOUBLE AND TRIPLE CROSSED😍😍😍🙈🙈

You stay safe, too!😁

xxxx

LET'S DO IT!

Just saying that the more fic writers the fandoms stay alive longer. That's why beta readers exist, ya know, to deal with authors shit and have early access to the chaps.

Also, teh first of being a fic writer - don't compare yourself to the others.

All, my fave ficst from Gundam SEED are not finished. And some are like... one chap away of being wrapped. That's called pain.

Mhm. Who is next on your list? cockatoo?

Sure, this is victim blaming =='

When Eutovision is on, Europeans take over social media and post about it and usamericans get CONFUSED and have no idea what's going on. All people lust for gay things, scream no more ballads, wait for the weirdest songs, complain about the judges and wich country vote for who and who betrayed who etc.

Yeah, the are making their version with the states compenting. Can't wait to hear all the country songs :))))) (joking, not going to watch)

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

There is a better idea - the ability to transfer the ideas on the document, without writing. Just you know, think about the fic idea and the fic appeares on the doc.

You know, i would hapily see how Darkling wins and just kills and fucks everyone. Like, make it happen. Well, hope your dreams and hopes will become reality - fingers crossed. I mean, why wasting Ben on some dumb shit???

Good luck! *gospel choir cheering in the background*

i think it turned out nicely. No spoilers, but I wrote Eve while having PiaD's Eve in my brain xD

...can i ask what did you imagine, the worst thing? I'm interested now.

....yeah. Great. X is not even going to be finished by CLAMP and they suffered in the TC too, great. I guess they would have been murdered in the X final chapters too, but still. This is how my ship-curse has started, with Sorashi, sigh.

He looked hot with that hair. Not too slicked (like Lobotoizer's in the final ep..), stilla little fluffy, great choice, seriosuly.

I had some high school/college fic ideas in my head and seriosuly, you can put them in ANY situation and they will work.

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, thanks.

Stay safe *hugs*

[islandpcosjourney]

Day 18 (pre-spring clean)

17th March 2022

I should not have changed the title of my cleanse yesterday to “spring clean”. Oh no, no, no, it is definitely still “pre-spring” here! This morning was low rumbling thunder which got closer and closer and eventually the sky just went dark and the lightening came with the thunder much nearer, followed by monsoon rain! Tonight, I came home in a hailstorm 🤷🏻‍♀️ Definitely not spring yet! So, back to “pre-spring clean” I go.

The last 2 days I’ve had 2 students who’ve been suffering with chronic fatigue, open up to me about brain fog and tiredness. It gave me the opportunity to briefly give them insight into my journey and they were intrigued. They’re older and having lessons online in the evening so a few minutes at the end of their lessons for a bit of honest chat between teenager and tutor seemed appropriate. I don’t think I could have done that over 2 years ago. There’s no way I could have contemplated being able to listen to their troubles and say “I’ve been through that” when I was currently going through it (chronic fatigue) with no way off the rollercoaster ride. Another random female from an infertility group is opening up to me too and seeking advice for how I’ve turned things around. After watching the Super Juice Me! documentary, she’s just messaged tonight to say that she’s taking the plunge, doing the 28-day challenge, and giving up smoking all in one go!

I’m no expert. I’m just a normal person who lost her way with a chronic condition but the one glimmer of a memory from a juicy friend over a decade ago, sparked something which turned into a life-changing 2 years. If I can be that juicy friend to someone, I’ll be happy because it only takes one random act of kindness to change the world like a butterfly effect. That juicy friend of mine’s ripples in the pond didn’t go very far back in 2008 but they were felt strongly in 2020, 12 years later – that’s something.

I have thought about training to be a juice therapist, but I struggle enough with running a basic business as a music tutor, it’s not something I reckon I could do alongside my music teaching and I’m definitely not giving that up! If I lived somewhere else and could just join another team, then perhaps but starting from scratch on an island where their staple diet is mince & tatties or fish? Eh, no. I know change has to start somewhere but I’m quite happy just being someone’s little ripple for now. I’ll continue to spread good feelings about the changes I’ve made and just hope to inspire a few along the way.

2 years ago we were getting daily messages about “help save the NHS” and “stay home, save lives” and while that was all good, the general state of our health and our health service is at breaking point (with or without a pandemic) and many people don’t see that. I did the whole ‘staying home’, following the rules etc but once the summer hit and I changed my lifestyle, I knew I was doing far better for the NHS then than I had been ever before. By making myself the healthiest I could be, I was less likely to need the NHS and get in the way of patients who needed the service. I wrote about it last year, about how losing 5%, 10% or 15% of your bodyweight can decrease your risks of getting cancer, having a heart attack or stroke etc. but more importantly, in 2 years I have not been ill for more than 4 days when I had a cold (sore throat then headache then sniffles then cough) for 4 days only. I’ve taken time out for menstrual cramps and feeling tired for various reasons, but I can hand on heart say that I have not been ill for 2 years and as someone who historically caught “something/anything” every 6 weeks like clockwork, that’s life-changing! Im sure nearly reaching a total loss of 30% of my body weight has something to do with it! I’m not advocating juicing as the only cure for things, of course not. I’m advocating a healthy lifestyle with plenty of fresh fruits & vegetables as part of a balanced diet. I’ve had the treats, I’ve had the white carbs, I’ve had the fry-ups, I’ve had the takeaways! I’m human at the end of the day and sometimes a bad day can only be cured with your favourite greasy chippy! The danger comes in when that 1 bad day becomes severs bad days in a month and then several bad months in a year etc. Juicing has allowed me the freedom to choose. It allowed me to wake up to my previous unhealthy lifestyle and feel control again over something which had not just simply fallen off the wagon but was running uncontrollably towards the highest cliff edge, right off the face of the earth. That might sound dramatic but that’s the path I was on. I had no idea how big and unhealthy I was, even until recently. Knowing I weighed nearly 19 stone is one thing. Seeing pictures of myself is another. Then seeing similar people on tv programmes, weighing around the same as I did and being totally shocked was yet another! I think I have mentioned the Superskinny vs supersize programme before…….. 🤔 If I haven’t, it’s about an underweight and overweight person switching diets for a few days and being encouraged to change their lives for the better. I found myself questioning what I was seeing and saying to Kevin “is that really how big I was” and him just blurting it out – “yes” 😱 Wow!

I know weight and size don’t always correlate and people carry weight differently but after you’ve watched dozens of episodes of this programme, you get the message about how bad you were before, trust me! I love that shock tactic because all too often you’re in total denial. Mirrors, clothes, and others can make you feel bigger or smaller than you are. Perception is a dangerous thing because our perception of ourselves AND other people can change so dramatically in such a short space of time. We must be careful not to judge others as we never know the whole story, but I was finding myself ever-increasingly identifying with the supersized participants in these episodes and feeling ever so grateful that I’d already found my “reason” to tackle my problems. If I had been them, I reckon I’d have gone into a deeper depression and become worse. When I was huge, I wasn’t able to hear anyone telling me that I needed to deal with my weight. I despised hearing from the Gyne consultant that I had to “eat like a ballerina” or that I needed to lose several stone. Someone else showing/telling me that I needed to address my health never went down well. It always had to be me finding out for myself, deciding to make changes myself, doing my own reading and finding out everything I could at my own pace, on my terms. I think it’s stubborn they call it?! Yup, that’s me!

I’m trying my best to encourage Kevin, but I don’t always get it right and I cause arguments. Admittedly I can see the same reactions in him as I had many years ago, yet I still haven’t learned how to change my tact to help him 🤦🏻‍♀️ He has to ultimately find out for himself, try out for himself, decide for himself. I can’t do any of that for him. I have provided the basics but what he does with it, is up to him. What I find hard is taking a step back when I can see that he’s flaunting the advice or twisting it to suit him (deep fried cauliflower being counted as the veg on his plate for instance 😂), knowing that I’ve worked so hard and put all the effort in from my side and can’t see the same coming from him. It’s so difficult, mostly because our journey is exactly that, ours. We both contribute to it good or bad. We both feel the disappointment each failed cycle. No disappointment this month though because we knew he’d be away when I ovulated so this wasn’t a trying cycle, and I can breathe a sigh of relief and not anxiously analyse every BBT figure each day in the 2-week window! It’s exhausting! So no disappointment here but excitement and relief that I might be finally closer to that end goal of a 28-day cycle. It should be 29 days this time and we shall see by Saturday if it is. I don’t have any plans this weekend except to take care of myself and rest. I’ve definitely written about that before, about how when I push myself working and taking painkillers on Day 1 of my cycle, that I can still be suffering for a few days later but if I rest and take proper time out to allow the natural rhythms of pain to be present then I will be full of energy and pain-free by Day 2! I genuinely can’t wait for this weekend as I’ve saved up episodes of my favourite shows. I’ve also been saving up portions of juice in the freezer just in case I don’t feel like standing in front of the juicer for an hour. Nothing will stop me from completing this 28-day challenge. I feel invincible!

[bisluthq]

FWIW one time deux said that taylor and harry pretended to date for publicity and i dm-ed her and asked her why she said that and she said maybe they developed some real feelings but that multiple reliable sources told her that their “dating” was all orchestrated by both their teams, they barely spent any time together that wasn’t reported on and it was all preplanned, him being seen backstage with her was planned, her being seen wearing his necklace was planned, they never even stayed together in the same room she stayed in her hotel and he stayed in his but he would driven to hers in order to get papped leaving it, her birthday trip was orchestrated and they stayed separately, them kissing on NYE, their vacation all of it was set up 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

I really don’t fucking trust deux to know what “multiple reliable sources” even means like dictionary definition style.

You’re on anon so this is kinda hard to verify lmfao. I’m honestly surprised Deux answered a random DM demanding more info about something controversial because she has a very busy inbox.

I think we all know that there was a lot of stuff done for publicity re Haylor (NYE was obviously a good example lol you don’t go to Times Square on NYE unless you want a hell of a lot of attention, Central Park pap walk, etc) and yes most of their time together was covered in media BUT they’d actually started hanging out before this (while she was still with Conor) and we do hear random stories about times they were seen by fans or when they went to record together and that stuff wasn’t covered in the same way at all, there are like some shitty pics or an anecdote which is how we know that yes they did spend time together outside the publicity stunts so MY GUESS would be they kinda liked one another, their teams really liked that they liked each other, they tried to date, their teams loved that and publicized the fuck out of it, they broke up because it was eh af and the constant scrutinize and publicity probably wasn’t working, they remained friendly and maybe hooked up a couple more times.

[cedar-woods]

I have an MFM threesome fantasy with my girlfriend; now, she wants it bad and I'm scared

Hi everyone. So here’s my story...

My girlfriend and I have been together 10 years, 3 kids, a house together. Our sex is sometimes infrequent, but when it’s on, it’s wonderful for both of us, and we’ll have it a lot in spells.

So, for YEARS I have been bringing up the idea of MFM here and there. She had done it once before our relationship (and did one FFM), and our sex conversations are very open (we’re both very sexually open-minded, and are pretty honest and open with each other), so it’s not a problem for us to say things we want to try.

All my sexual fantasies have previously involved just one person, so it’s been easy to fulfill them and feel great about it. HOWEVER, I’m a very jealous and insecure person (I mean, I like myself and feel good about myself; I just have a lot of fear of rejection or other such romantic loss). Thus, this most recent fantasy has stuck around for years, due to my fear about how it would actually feel to see my girlfriend with someone else; specifically, regarding being pleased by them. For whatever reason, the idea of her going down on someone: no problem. Her RECEIVING pleasure from them, and I’m scared.

Back to me mentioning it for years; sometimes, she has said, “That doesn’t interest me,” but other times has said, “Maybe that sounds good.” Also, early on in our relationship, she said she does have group sex fantasies, like, “If only there were 2 more clones of you.” (Probably just expressing the desire but trying to keep me feeling secure.)

Here’s the stupid / terrible thing: I think I’ve always been sort of banking on her to say, “Not really interested,” and then I can just keep it a fantasy. That’s stupid, right?

So, recently, I was DRUNK (terrible idea for me in general), and I asked if she would get a Feeld account to see who is out there. She agreed, and her profile was like, “My boyfriend wants me to have this, so 🤷🏻‍♀️ .”

I was a little surprised that she would get it at all and have her picture up, because she is fairly modest in general.

Okay, so she started getting interest in her instantly (because she’s beautiful), and I think really enjoyed being able to sift through guys to see who she was attracted to.

At the end of the session on there - and up to the present moment - she has been SUPER into the idea of MFM; like she wants it BADLY.

Couple this with the fact that she is feeling old lately, and I think she wants to feel attractive (in spite of me reminding her how beautiful she is often; maybe she needs to feel that from others).

Okay, so I think you get the picture. I’ve mentioned the idea over the years, I’m a jealous guy, so it’s a weird fantasy for me to have at all, I’ve been always hoping she wouldn’t really want to do it, and now she REALLY does and I’m in crisis mode.

Pretty damned stupid, eh? Yes. I don’t hold back on this.

Here’s where I’m looking for your input: what the hell should I do??? I mean, I have to go through with it since I’m the one who planted the idea in her head, yeah? I wish I could go back and NOT suggest the idea, and keep it a fantasy for me. But, too late; I have zero time machines.

She’s been pretty respectful about it, and says we don’t HAVE to do it. On the other hand, she seems to be ignoring my clear anxiety over it, and keeps acting like it’s going to happen, and soon. Also, she knows that her being sexually pleased is my main issue, and yet has gone from saying she just wants to blow another guy while I’m having sex with her, to being okay with sex, to even being okay receiving oral. I feel like I’m being clear with my fears / boundaries, but maybe I need to state it very clearly?

I guess I don’t want to ruin it for her if sex / oral sex with the other M are part of the whole thing for her. And ultimately, I’m VERY ready to please always (whatever she wants, I’ll do, and I’ll be in an awkward position to go down on her any day). This is just the first time where the thing she wants for pleasure is ANOTHER GUY. Ahhh!

I don’t think I’m afraid of the event itself (it would probably be really hot, when it came down to it), as much as I’m afraid of the after effects. She cheated 3 years ago, and that still stings sometimes. If I do this, will it just intensify my insecurities, pain, and overall trust issues?

I’m also a bit afraid that, if I don’t do this, not that she will get MFM elsewhere, but maybe that she would sometime cheat with one guy again. And I’m afraid of her falling for the other guy in the MFM, and I’m afraid of not liking it, but her forever craving it afterwards, with me having to either do it or say, “No.”

I should also admit that MAYBE my inquiries about MFM over the years have been sort of fidelity tests (go ahead and punch me; I deserve it). Like I just mentioned, I have some trust issues, and it’s like, “If my girlfriend would do this, then she’s not 100% faithful.” (Punch me again.)

So, I have a sexual fantasy that I don’t know if I actually want fulfilled, but I’ve turned my long-term partner onto it, but don’t want to ruin the relationship for me (more insecurity) and don’t want to ruin it for her (“He didn’t do the thing he fantasized about and got me turned on to.”).

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Random note: lately, if the topic gets brought up at all, she is suddenly on fire with lust, and we have crazy-good sex. On the other hand, it maybe just freaks me out even more afterwards, as I'm like, "Umm... it wasn't *me* that just turned her on, it was the idea of me and another guy."

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Another random note: she told me that me being willing to do it (when I have been more on the "Yes" side of the fence) makes her love me more; like I'm not being possessive, am willing to please her with this thing that makes me jealous, and am maybe being more open. Is that a red flag at all (like she doesn't love the *real* me), or it's okay, since she's just saying she loves my apparent little patch of openness?

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Any feedback is great (thank you). Go easy with the punches, as I know I’m emotionally immature, and a bit of an idiot when it has come to this topic.

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